Beating Myself Up

Saturday I told myself I was going to mow the front yard, only the front yard, I’m not mowing the back till Sunday. I ended up mowing the whole thing. Then Sunday, I went to a 90 minute yoga class taught by my meditation instructor, then went and had a nice breakfast.

I made it home in the early afternoon and finished my book and lazed around, took a nap, etc. All the while berating myself for wasting my weekend, wasting my life and accomplishing nothing. If I’d saved the back yard for Sunday, I would have had a feeling of accomplishment and satisfaction for a job well done, time well spent, a life well lived.

I treat myself worse than I treat anybody else. And nobody is crueler in words and opinion than I am of myself…. It has been pointed out to me before, sometimes I can see it but most the time I can’t.

Here’s a sunrise photo from the weekend.

Have a great week!

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