Fear VS Excitement

People sometimes ask me if I’m excited about going to Panama. I’m not sure I know what that means, excitement. I am looking forward to going, I want to go. But also I am planning the trip and trying to not forget anything and maybe I’m worried about something going wrong during the trip. It seems I’m more aware of potential problems. I’m quite sure I’m going to have a good time, it’s a given practically. I’m focused trying to be ready for any situation and not forget anything. Is that fear? Worried about fitting a week’s worth of clothes in a carry-on suitcase. Technically, worry is fear.

I don’t think it’s emotional at all. I don’t think it’s excitement or fear. I think it’s just logic making sure the necessities are covered.

this morning, I was listening to a guided meditation, and it asked how I felt. My answer was the same as always. Then I realized that wasn’t really an answer. Then I started wondering how I felt, and didn’t really find myself able to come up with a satisfactory answer. Which I thought was Interesting.

I’ll be getting ready for my Panama trip this weekend, I’m going on Monday. Yay! I’m so excited.

Have a great weekend!

Good Meditation App

I wanted to tell you about a good meditation app. It’s called Smiling Mind It is free, from an Australian non profit organization.

it’s a good meditation app, it can teach you to meditate from scratch, and will continue to be beneficial to you and your daily meditation practice.

We exercise and eat well to take care of our bodies, meditation is what we do for our minds, same thing.

Have a great day!

Long Week

Yesterday (Tuesday) seemed like Friday. No particular reason, just perspective.

this morning I feel like my brain isn’t functioning properly, hopefully coffee can cure it. I have a feeling it will. The image below proves it.

I think it’s hard to be at work because I keep thinking about going to Panama next week! I can hardly wait!

last night here was incredibly windy. The wind was making all sorts of wild noises in my aluminum railings outside.

have a great year!

The Monday Regularity

Friday at work was Culture Day. People wore clothes from their native country. Below is Honduras

Below is the Cayman Islands. Traditional dresses on the ladies and khaki seafarers outfits and Cayman cowboys

there was also a small representation by the Philippines, Court a large representation from Jamaica and a few other countries. There was lots of good food.

Sunday I took Lenny to the beach.

It was a nice weekend overall, but it was cloudy and cool and there was no shore diving to be had. Also it rained off and on.

One week from today I had to Panama

I Can Save You Now

I completed my first aid course yesterday without a problem. Now I’m certified man just like the old days. Whenever I take a first aid course or get around the Red Cross who reminds me of my old days as a lifeguard and teaching swim lessons when I was in high school. I was thinking then that I would like to just have a life of being a lifeguard and teaching swim lessons. The people who taught my course and the people who work for the Red Cross are actually doing it. And when I go there I think this could have been my path.

1200 Duolingo Days in a row today. Normal Spanish is still much too difficult for me to understand. Everyone seems to speak so fast.

Happy Friday riday, have a good weekend!

A New Dentist (again)

I’m way behind on my dental work I have things that needed to be done since 2020 on my record. When I go to the dentist, I spend the first half of the year paying my deductible, then I’m maxed out, and then I got to pay because I’m maxed out. This year I was maxed out in March.

I’m due for a 6-month cleaning, my dentist called, reminded me my insurance was maxed out, and said it would be $220 for the cleaning. $220 for a cleaning. Seems high. I called a dentist near where I work and they said between $225 and $275 for cleaning.

then a co-worker recommended his dentist, so I called them and it was $125 for a cleaning. Plus they already had my name on file. In 2007, when I was with the government healthcare system, I went to this dentist because I needed an implant, the government system didn’t cover implants. So this dentist was a dentist who was only on the island part time and I had an implant done. This dentist is now on this Island full time and I recall he’s a very good dentist. Hope I can get some better prices and some affordable dental care. My dental insurance really is practically worthless.

Tomorrow for work I have first aid training all day.