I have a great life. I know it and I’m grateful every day. But why can’t I control how I feel? A couple weeks ago on a Saturday, I decided to stay home, have a lazy day, made some eggs, read my book, lay in the Sun, and I really enjoyed my day. It was wonderful, it was so wonderful that I decided to do it again on Sunday.
Sunday I was miserable. I felt like I was wasting my life I was lonely and bored. All the stuff that was wonderful yesterday sucked today. I realized that the only thing different was my mood, and wondered why I could not control my mood?
What the hell can I control if it’s not that? The inside of my own head.
I have a great time pretty much all the time, except sometimes when I’m home alone. Hence the title of the post, walking to close to the cliff. How can I avoid my home? How can I avoid being alone in my own head?
Anyway it was a great weekend, went diving yesterday. Photos below.
we had a blood moon lunar eclipse last night, I got up but it was mostly cloudy. And I went right back to bed. I could see a cookie bite taken out of the Moon but the picture didn’t come out.
today’s Friday I’m looking forward to the weekend. It seems like it’s been a very long week.
I want to reiterate how good it is sleeping without the lighted clock in the room, and how good it is having music when you swim.
A selection of random pictures from my camera photo album. The view from my office window. Moonset this morning. Sagittarius teapot drawn on. Goldie the cat in the yard. (Goldie is very old, 15 plus). My visitors last week. A funny sign and Sagittarius not drawn on, original picture. It should be next to the one that I drew on, I don’t know why it’s not.
Can’t make this up. A new four-lane highway cutting through tens of thousands of acres of protected Amazon rainforest is being built for the COP30 climate summit in the Brazilian city of Belém.
Isn’t that oxymoronic? Destroying rainforest so that people can get to the climate change summit more conveniently? It sounds counterproductive
There’s a mixed reaction, apparently. The highway is supposed to be very “eco-friendly”, but you know humans are just going to say that so you give them what they want.
I had visitors over the weekend, I gave them my bedroom and slept on the sofa. I slept pretty good. One thing I noticed throughout the night, is that I would wake up and not know what time it is. This turned out to be a huge positive. Because in my room, I would wake up, look at the clock, and calculate how much time I had left to sleep or calculate how long I had been asleep or just worry about the time. Wondering if I was getting enough sleep.
I guess I’ve left (after a very nice visit) and I have returned to my bedroom. I turned the clock away, so I couldn’t see it while I was laying in bed.
Success! I seemed to sleep a lot better, when I’m not looking at the clock all night