Hump day.
My attitude is poor. I listen to the news, and hear about the widening gap between rich and poor and I feel like I’m coming out on the poorer side. I know in my head, that it’s all my attitude, but that knowledge doesn’t help the way I feel.
At the same time, I feel like my Wife is on the rich side, ’cause it seems like she’s got it all together.
Like I said, I know it’s all attitude, and my attitude sucks today.
I’ve never known what I wanted to be when I grew up. I still don’t. I’m in my current field because of a stupid Heathkit stereo I built with my Dad. When I joined the Navy, I picked Electronics Technician because I didn’t know what I wanted to do and thought “This’ll be just like putting together that Heathkit stereo.” Now, almost 40 years later, I’m still doing the same thing, and not, I don’t think, making enough money at it.
All I want to do is go to the beach and go diving. I could be a scuba instructor, but that pays less than half what I make now, and I can’t afford that. Been that way for years.
Once, a long time ago, I was seeing a shrink about something, (can’t remember what) and she said she had never met anyone who didn’t listen to their inner voice as much as I didn’t listen to mine. I don’t HAVE an inner voice!
I know that this is just how I feel today, and tomorrow I’ll feel good again. Like I said.
It’s just attitude.
Well we think we all have an inner voice and the hardest thing is to listen to it and go for the unknown. We all usually ignore it until one day enough is enough and we take a chance. Have a wonderful Wednesday.
Best wishes Molly
glad you vented a bit. hope it made you feel better.
I haven’t visited you in so long but, thought often of you. Honest truth. I never know what someone means by “inner voice” but, it sounds like something bogus that a psychiatrist made up. A conscience we have; inner voice could be what we try to kid ourselves with when we can’t figure things out to make ourselves feel better. Your wife sounds like the Sunshine in your life. Truly, I hope your wish comes true about what you’d really like to be doing.
My inner voice told me to learn how to drive tractor trailer, so I went to a local school through the government and learned. I graduated with honors but I never did drive professionally. Instead I married a truck driver and we lived happily ever after. Ta da!
Dude you are not alone! I STILL don’t know what I want to do with my life! 55, 6 kids, 12 grandkids and *sigh*… no life of my own yet.
I’m almost 71 and I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up…look at my last photo tomorrow on my Monday post..it will strike a cord..wait fuck I think its the last one…you’ll know which one I mean when you see it.
can you hire your boat out for fishing scuba diving tours??