Found an interesting article HERE, Betelgeuse is dimmer than scheduled as per its particular pattern of brightness variation.

Orion, where Betelgeuse is found, is a very common constellation. It has two triangles, one perfect and one imperfect. Betelgeuse is the red looking star in the perfect triangle. When I was a kid, I decided I needed a lucky star, and picked that red one because I was sure I could find it again.

The article says it may go nova, or has gone nova already. Going Nova means blow up. Explode.

Just my luck, I finally get a lucky star and God blows it up. It would be cool to see though. It possibly would be brighter than our sun for weeks or months.

Have a great weekend!

Christmas went better than expected. Got it out of the way.

Really got nothing planned for the rest of the year.

I haven’t taken a single photo since I don’t know when. Let me check.

This is the last picture I took, December 20th

This is the excess electrical materials the electrician bought. The box is all full of light switches and plug-in things. I was able to return it all for over $400. Thank you Cox Lumber! In contrast, the plumber had very little excess material left over. I have very few leftover cement blocks, the electrician was very wasteful, and didn’t submit the paperwork for the added breaker panel that’s holding the whole project back. Not impressed with the electrician. But hey, I fuckup often too, so I’m letting it slide.

Today, I don’t really have plans. The wife is getting a new office at work and wants me to go help her move her computer.

That’s about it. I have aleftover bag of cement, and I’m thinking about expanding my motorcycle ramp in the carpark. Maybe, maybe not. probably not today.

Have a great day!

I feel a lot better this morning than yesterday morning. Better attitude. I talked to the wife, and we’ve been on the same page.

There’s a strong wind from the north, quite cool.

Last night we went and saw Jumanji 3. It was quite good. I think they’ll be another movie made in the future.

Apologies about my rant yesterday. Have a great day!

I didn’t plan on writing a poem when I sat down to post my post, but here goes:

Every single damn year, 
I feel the same fear.
It hurts in my head
from ear through to ear.
It's dumb, you agree,
but it's important to me.
That I buy you more shit,
than you bought for me.

Worry fills my head
No joy, only dread.
I transmit bad vibes
like angry bee hives.
Everyone can tell
that I don't feel well
Dogs and cats they all run,
they sense I'm no fun.


Friends and family will ask,
"What did you get?"
Your answer must not
fill me with regret.
So I must buy still more stuff,
to feel I've given enough.
To get you more shit,
than you got for me.

The morning will come,
I'll feel very dumb.
You will be sad,
I'll feel so bad.
whether or not
I got more shit for you,
than you got for me.

The wife and I agreed, months ago, this was going to be a no-gift Christmas. What if I followed through and she didn’t? What if we wake up on the morning and I have to open gifts while she has none to open?

I fukken hate this shit. I hate the feeling in general this time of year. I hate the pressure of trying to find appropriate gifts. I hate acting like I like some piece of junk that I don’t need or want, and being stuck with it forever. I hate the self-doubt of getting you something you don’t like. I hate that I’ll feel bad if I feel like I didn’t get you enough, and I hate the worry that you’ll feel bad if I got you more than you got me. I find very little good in this time of year. There’s no winning.

And usually, I never feel like I’ve gotten enough. Usually I run out of time. No matter how much I buy, the fear never goes away.

Believe me whan I say, I have everything I want. I have no desires that can be put in a box. Believe me when I say, someone asks me what I want, I draw a blank. I honestly can’t think of anything. And I can’t think of anything to get you either.

Pretty much up till now, this year, I’ve been focused on the building project, and woke up thinking of this this morning.

Get me through this.

It’s Friday, Tomorrow is the longest night. Days’ll start getting longer again after that.

That’s a good thing, although I do like the dark morning walks better than the light ones for some reason.

Headed into town today, gonna try and return 4 boxes of tile the tile company said they’d take back. Somehow, I doubt they’ll be true to their word. We’ll see. Traffic should be a nightmare.

Not too excited about the day coming up. Hopefully it won’t be cloudy and I’ll get some beach time in.

Have a great weekend!

This is the first real rain we’ve had in the past two months at least. It’s sprinkled it the last coupla days, but now it’s raining raining.

This rain gives me a soothing, calming feeling. I feel now, looking back, like I’ve been stressed and tense for months, and the rain is washing it all away.

Today’s a holiday here, because of a postponed voting day. The wife is off work, and this is her favorite sleeping weather. I’m glad for an opportunity to stay indoors and kinda do nothing.

Have a great day!

We flunked the electrical inspection. The breaker sub panel wasn’t on the plans. Originally, there was going to be a single breaker on the main panel for the whole project. The electrician thought it would be good to have a subpanel. And I agreed.

But since it wasn’t on the original drawings, there was a document to be submitted that wasn’t. (Boo on the electrician). Now I have to submit new electrical drawings thru planning.

Now, the architect is coming today, and if he is able to draw the drawings by the 20th, the last day before Christmas shutdown, they’d sit on somebodies (somebody’s?) desk at Planning till 2020. If Planning takes the expected minimum three weeks, we’re talking probably the last week in January.

So we’re all stopped, pretty much.

I’m disappointed.

No more work for me till 2020 (that rhymes) I turned my alarm clock off.

The downstairs construction is almost done. Electrical inspection later today, Cabinets are in, need the countertop. Water getting connected today. There’s a whole heap of lights, multi llight switches everywhere.

Pictures coming

The electrician had a helluva time getting power from the upstairs. He had to cut a hole in our upstairs ceiling and wall. Gotta get them fixed.

The brand new smoke detector battery is apparently low, making it chirp already. I think that generally speaking, anything that has a 9 volt battery sucks, there’s something wrong with 9 volt batteries.

I’m not complaining, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I’m glad it’s almost over.

The amount of lights in there is rediculous.

Have a great day!

It’s a nice morning, the almost-full moon is high in the sky providing nice light in what would be a still dark pre-sunrise morning;

All I need for the construction project is electricity, pretty much. Cabinets are going in today, there’s touch-ups needed around, but it’s pretty close to being done.

I’m still nervous and can’t wait till its done.

Today is my last workday till the year 2020. Vacation starts tomorrow! I got a ton of work to do today.

Have a good week!

For me, Friday the 13th’s have always been lucky days, instead of unlucky, as the myth says.

In the news, the BBC said this morning that Brexit will happen by the end of January, and Scotland might leave the UK, and re-join the EU. We have friends visiting from Scotland, we’ll see what they have to say today.

I’m not really too excited about this weekend, I can’t anticipate what’s going to go on, construction-wise. Not sure what role I’ll be playing, parts runner, stand around and looker, or absentee at the beach. Yesterday was productive, but not as much got done as I hoped.

Have a good weekend!