night snorkel

Tonight I went for a night snorkel across the street. It was very nice. there were a lot of bioluminesence. (I call them lumens) and I saw an octopus hunting. When they hunt they move around and make themselves into a tent over rocks, coral and crevasses and holes. Any little niche where fish may hide. Then they reach in and any fish swim out and get caught in the “tent”. then the octopus closes up on them and he has his dinner! A lot of times when he (or she) stretches out to make the tent, their body gets so thin you can actually see through it and can see the fish inside! This page has a lot of links about boluminesence:
http://www.herper.com/Bioluminescence.html
It’s also just fun to turn off your light and wiggle and gyrate in the water and look at your body because the lumens come on when the water they are in gets disturbed. You can make a real starshow!


Thursday lunch spot. Posted by Hello This is a picture I took while I was on my lunch hour yesterday. There was a good aluminium section at the end of a dock that was wrecked by a storm. I had to balance and walk out there on two pieces of wood. The water was about 6 feet deep at the end where I was and I had my phone, camera, towel and book, none of which I wanted to get wet. Aren’t I lucky to be able to spend my lunch hour in such a great spot? By the way, this is at Spotts Public Beach.

North Side Beach

My Shadow on the beach from last week Posted by Hello

Last week I took this picture of my shadow on the beach at Northside. I was at an Outside Broadcast and got all my equipment set up and had a few minutes to spare so I walked across the street and took this pic with my now famous phone camera.

Today I went to work at my regular time of 7:30. It was hard to wake up at 5:30, my usual wake up time. These two girls at work had a big fight and I was right there. It really stressed me out. I was there for the whole thing and I don’t even know what started it.

Lets see how this comes out.

Sunday night

I was trying to watch a movie, but I couldn’t find one I liked. I have dozens. If I had only one it would be easier to pick one.
I like to press the “next blog” button and see where it goes. I like the ones that are just people writing what is going on. I was reading about a girl who went to the psychiatrist today about her medicine. I admire her honesty. Then I accidentially closed the window and lost it.
I am cooking chicken in frying pan. It is pretty messy. The chicken was frozen and it isn’t cooking right and seems to be taking a lot more time than I thought it would.
I gotta be the most boring person in the world. Everyone else has friends, everyone elses phone rings all the time and they are busy. I spend all my time alone and have no close friends who I confide in.My phone never rings unless it’s work.
Don’t get me wrong, I have a great life. I live where I want to live and I do what I love to do, I just wish I had someone to do it with. 14 years ago, I quit drugs and alcohol. All the time I was partying, all I wanted was a girl who liked to do drugs and party. I could never find a party girl who wanted to be with me. Now, I live in a beautiful tropical paradise and I love the beach and the sun and the sea and diving. One would think it would be easy, here, to find someone who likes the same thing, but noooooo. The women who like what I like don’t seem to want to have anything to do with me.
I go to the beach almost every day and go diving a lot, (but I don’t go diving as much as I’d like, ’cause it’s hard to find a dive buddy). I have a great job. But everywhere I go and whatever I do and whoever I am with I feel different and alone. I think I am happy and have a good life but how do I know? compared to what? I think my life is really great except for one facet: I am lonely. I spend way too much time alone and when I’m alone with myself I drive myself deeper and deeper into this pit. When I am alone I start telling myself how nobody likes me and how fucked up I am. When I get with other people I feel better.
I am extemely self centered and focus too much on myself, I feel better when I don’t focus on myself so much. But why? Is it because when I look at myself I see how bad I really am and when I don’t look I feel better because I don’t see it? But I don’t know anything so terrible about myself.
I don’t know. My life is going by and it’s good but not right. I’m 44, no kids. My mother makes quilts for my sisters friends kids (and grandkids) because she doesn’t have any grandkids of her own. She’s been ripped off by me. When I was younger, I always wanted kids, now I’m so old that if I had kids now I’d be almost 65 by the time they graduated high school. I don’t really want kids any more, but love them. Kids are born perfect and adults fuck them up.
Also I don’t want to be his freaky old hermit bastard who lives alone and who nobody really knows when I am older either, which is what I see coming.
freeking recluse is almost what I am.

May First. Great day so far!

My long period of celibacy ended. Last night a girl I really like called and said she was locked out of her house, could she come over. So I said yes. SHe is much younger than I and has a perfect body. big firm tits and tiny waist and perfect ass. It was fabulous. I can go a long time without sex and THINK I’m horny, but after I get laid once, THEN I am REALLY horny.